What I Feel - Writing #3

I really wasn't in the mood to write today, so I grabbed a bit of writing out of my archives for you guys to read. Hope it isn't too badly written, it was written a while ago.
It's called 'What I Feel' but I suppose you got that already from the title of the post.
Enjoy....I guess.

What I Feel

I hide,
Behind a mask that rarely slips.
I hide,
Behind deceit and lies.

I escape,
Into a world where I am accepted.
I escape,
Into a place where I don't care.

I fade,
Into the crowds.
I fade,
Into the void that is my home.

I wake up,
And put on a false smile every morning.
I wake up,
And install a new personality before I walk out the door.

I feel,
Nothing anymore.
I feel,
Empty and broken inside.

I hurt,
Until I can't hurt anymore.
I hurt,
Until the hurt becomes too much.

I lie,
Until my life is in tatters.
I lie,
Until my life and everything in it shatters.

Then, and only then,
Do I die inside.

Just-another-bland-human-being
Samantha