Before I Begin

Before I even begin, I want to clarify something.
If you are reading this, and it isn't just crazy old me writing for the hell of it, you can tell me. I won't bite.

I'm a little crazy at times, a little strange, but mostly I'm just me. A young adult female, with an ambition that no longer holds attraction for her, and a clueless internal compass with no idea which way to go.
Oh, and I suffer from depression.

The title of the blog is pretty self explanatory, at least in my mind. 'Devoid Within' describes the emotional state of my own mind on a daily basis.
Something that I've said that sticks in my mind is: "I don't do happy often. Instead I do 'not-so-down' and 'normally-functioning-human-being' rather than happy. I don't look back on my day and say, "That was a successful day because I was happy." It's more of a case of "That was a successful day because I got something minor done and wasn't stuck in my own head without motivation.

A warning to all who may or may not read this, this is my personal thoughts. I am not suicidal, nor do I self harm or abuse substances in the physical reality of this world. In my head is a whole other matter and I'm sure I'll go into that at a later date. But this blog is more for me, rather than anybody else. If it helps you, please let me know. If you relate, please let me know. I am not an expert, but sometimes having somebody who thinks similarly to you is good, and often I tell my life through stories and poems, which there will be a few of on this blog.

Semi-motivated-human-being,
Samantha.